BUT. Do not take this as defeat because timing is everything, and if they force you to the ground to build again, then it IS for the win, and you will see that you needed to work a bit more diligently in really embodying the dream. DO NOT accept that you are a loser and that you were foolish to think things could be better. You may be learning that your high hopes just need a bit more stability through the rebuild so that they can stand strong. But what you dream for IS to be what you are to continue to shoot for. Others are ALWAYS going to come in as a big wind storm that may knock your castle down. And if it gets knocked down, you just need to rebuild it better and with thoughts of NOT racing up the mountain, but rather really making the foundation sure first.
This day is all about holding love even if you feel let down and as if you aren’t the chosen one. We all went to job interviews at places we totally wanted to work, yet we got passed by and someone else got the job. We need to condition our insides to embrace the no as more clarity on what you DO want to go for in your future. NO does not need you fighting to make it a yes. Look at how many people get divorced or need to. How many people pushed to make a relationship a yes and now years later they have to rebuild because it turned out to be a no. My mother was determined to get together with this man and fought for him for years. Then she gets him and years later he sexually assaults her best friend, so she leaves him. But then she takes him back and years later he sexually assaults me. And everyone who knows me knows I changed after that and have really never gotten back to my free spirited ways.
It's time for us to face the red flags, the warnings, and the things we have to chase after to make them work because THEY ARE NOT where we are supposed to be. We have just learned to be full of illusion in thinking we know best about what we need – when in fact, THE ONE sees us and wants to be with us and isn’t going to make us jump through the hoops to get us. There is an ease in what is good for us, but we are so wounded we don’t wait around for it. We jump into pain and try to act like it's a part of the game – and it IS in showing us THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR YOU.
If you get into some spat with another today, do what you can to walk away with grace and not fight them to your side of things. Hold space for your valuable self to not engage in things that take you away from the love of life. Declare that ease is how you travel now, EVEN IF you end up on the dead-end streets. And if you do fall and fumble and end up where you don’t want to be, decide today that you won't fall for this ever again and LEARN that NO is actually clear as day.
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We are in the trial and error energy where we have to try things to find out, BUT just because we thought this was the way to go in our past doesn’t mean it always will be. As we evolve and change, we grow better with what we take into our lives. And often, the more wounded we are, the more likely we are choosing for things that are just good enough or are what is there right now, as we won't be so inclined to wait and expect that something better is on the way. Just like how I jumped on that house in Durango, that had so many red flags but also so much teasing me thinking I was supposed to be there, like with the stain glass windows that were of the sun and moon.
And all the neighbors came to meet me and warned me about the owner and how dark spirited she is, and they even said I should break the lease and get out because everyone loses everything when they stay there. But I persevered and was sure it would work out for me. And you all know how that went. But I tell you what, I WILL NEVER ignore red flags again. I needed to walk that journey, or a similar one, in order to learn that when it is right for me, it will feel all the way right and not just 25%.
We need to stumble and fall after we think THIS IS IT because life is about learning to grow better and smarter in really slowing down our reaches that often are about following what we think we need to be doing OR living in fear in thinking there is not enough to go around so we must grab what is here.
I’ve also been learning about WHO is right for me in my business where I will feel grossed out by people – and not that they are gross, but it's the way it digests in my body where they feel that way to me. I now know it is a sign saying this person is not your person. And the MOMENT it comes, I’m letting them know this is not going to work. The old me WORKED WITH those people I felt grossed out by! The old me was so happy to have help or this collaboration that I didn’t inquire why I also was feeling those negative ways. Now, if we don’t feel like true friends and your energy feels clean in my system, rather than gross, I stop in my tracks INSTANTLY. And no longer will I make their feelings more important than my psychic senses speaking up. I used to get into so much trouble because I didn’t want to hurt anyone or let them down by saying I didn’t want to collaborate anymore or work together. I just stayed until it became chaotic and unsavory – which is why I was being warned that it was just illusion in the first place THROUGH feeling them as gross. I’m sure this is waking something up in many of you because you know what I’m talking about!
On the way to the dream, there will be many choices. Things that are there are not necessarily the one, just like when we look for our romantic partners. Many who arrive are to test us to value what we feel inside and to declare a PASS because this is NOT good enough for where we ultimately want to be. On the way to the dream, we learn that we deserve better, and the tests are there to awaken that wisdom from within. You got to fall on the way to the dream, but it merely fine tunes your abilities to decipher what is illusion and what really is your thing.
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Start this day in meditation and just feel the new energies and how they are here FOR YOU to get you dreaming for a better life path that feels like it will provide room to grow. We are learning new ways to run our days so that we are not on automatic and chasing the old-world things that suck us dry of life. Many of you will be talking about new patterns where you will limit what you allow yourself to partake in with social media and news and things that really MOSTLY are not even the truth. You will see that waking up and meditating helps you to NOT chase the wrong things and to clearly hear and feel what you next need to do.
Before I launched my business, I was depressed for the first time in my life, as I’ve always been very resilient and was so destroyed in childhood that I just learned to roll with things and hope for the best. But at that time, I was pressed down, as I put it and couldn’t even move. And it is when I started meditating for real. So every morning I would go out and sit near the sweat lodge on my property and just sit there in silence. And what started happening is that I would hear what I needed to do! It usually was just one small piece, but I was getting direction. And within days, I launched my website and have been racing to keep up since. It's another reason I know depression is moving you to get up and go – but in a different way than you have been going – which is why it gives you the sensation that you can't do anything – because in the direction you are in, you can’t. Meditation unlocks the steps of the new way.
And on today, it will be like the sun is finally rising and you see THIS is what you now need to be doing!!! So, expect to come alive today and to see that you can't keep doing this old pattern and old path that is giving you signs of fatigue and despair BECAUSE it's not for you anymore. This day is about bringing change that keeps you seeing we never really know, but if we trust the way things make us feel and do things not of the norm in working to understand them, such as through meditation and going silent, we FIND a better path. We don’t know until we know and today brings surprises that will have you wanting to leap into this new area and take a risk with what feels like it is what you need to now delve into.
ALSO, your emotions can come on strong today with sadness over what is no longer in your life. But do see that this is to help you grow and do something better. Even like my example above is when I lived in the house where I lost Moon Bear. So I just looked at her picture and started crying over the pain of what hurt me more than anything in life so far. And I can tell you that my current animals get SO MUCH of me and so much play and so much love. After death comes a better life BECAUSE it shakes us to the core and gets us way more present with what is here and now – but that COULD be gone tomorrow.
Also, it is a great day to work on your website or to redesign what you had in place that now needs to be upgraded. There are HEAP LOADS of creative inspirations rising, and when you do tap into the insight, it is GOING to get you reaching for something out there that feels like a leap of faith you TOTALLY believe in. When your sight is finally clear, shoot that arrow and KNOW it's going exactly where you dream it can go. You are onto something big!
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You also may have situations where you are watching others do things that you think of as low vibe or deplorable, but they are here today because you have some sort of record in your past that also walked in a similar way. Where you feel irritated or rubbed raw by others you are to stop and digest how you have reacted the same in your past. Something about what you see needs to be allowed into your body through a mirror where you accept something and strive to rise higher with your own behaviors.
What we all need to acknowledge about life is that we get better and better as we get older and more understanding of how our systems run. But also, new information is to upgrade us and give us new views of what we thought when we sat in localized areas of thinking.
Just like how I always talk about growing up near St. Louis before internet and cellphones and then moving to San Francisco at 24 with my cat Moose and how my mind expanded alive in seeing all these other sides and perspective from meeting people all over the world. When you sit on one patch of the mountain, it is all you see. But if you get up and grow and go you will discover more about what REALLY is going on. Think about what you learn from your family, whether that be racism or sexism or that it is wrong to be gay. We are WILDLY impressionable. And if we get backwards teachings planted into our garden, we grow those same ideologies and try to cram them down the throats of others.
But are they the truth, or are they just one little piece of a potential puzzle that may work for some but it won't work for all. Some people LOVE to hate people who are not of their race. They get off on smearing and cutting down what they see as less than. And if you grew up around that, you will feel that way UNTIL you move around and get to know more people and wake up to the reality that we were programmed to be less than we can be by thinking we are better than others.
Something about this day will ring a bell that gets you seeing how small minded you were in your past because of your conditioning and how you don’t want to enforce that pattern anymore. What you see from another is going to bring a clue to your own past where you will decide to walk with more compassion in the future as you understand we ALL got programmed incorrectly, but we all can also be rewired back into true form. It comes from acceptance that we all are flawed and in need of repair and we are to NOT be the pointing finger trying to gaslight or diminish another because we don’t approve of where they are on their healing journey. We all get it wrong, and we all eventually, hopefully, get it right. But trial and error is how we learn, and expansion and moving around is how we wake up to how wrong localized thinking can be. Something is to come to the light today that moves you out of old patterns where you WERE actually hurting your future potential. Be open to what the doctor has to say. Something is rising for you to face.
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Now. There also is a warning that someone is going to tease you with an irrational idea that needs YOU valuing yourself more so that you don’t give it your energy and lose the next 3 days to feeling frustrated over this other person. No fights have winners today as there is no backing down from needing to prove one’s points. I’m seeing this energy as people not giving up on wanting to dig their own graves with mean spirited views on things. Anyone who has a fiery position or way about them needs to be avoided today!! You are to see that they are a test to see if you really want to live with love and honor for all. This person is a gateway to test if the old you would rather just sit around and hate others for how different you think they are.
It’s time for us to show that we have changed and that the old programs no longer rule our lives. We all have been played and fooled into showing our asses when we don’t get our way or fighting with others to force them to our view of things. None of you want to be dragged to the cave and forced to abide because others come with sharp words that sting or with threats that try to bring you to your knees. Wake up and see the truth of who we are inside and how that paints the picture of what we expect things to be. The Tasmanian devil swirls in a certain way as per what vibrates inside. Does that mean you need to replicate and be what you see?
The test today asks you to dive deeper into the realities that form the external expressions that NOW are to get you seeing for a new reality of what you want to bring. Stand firm and strong in seeing for an understanding or answer that helps you move along into a new way of being. Where there is darkness, you need to vibe in a certain way where you know there is light on the other side and a reason you are here to face this karma that you keep manifesting.
What you do today is going to lay down a new pattern for how you relate to others and with what sort of people you attract. So do NOT be your old self as you face things that may try to get a rise out of you. Do not keep with old addictions or ways that you fight others in dark spirited ways instead of fighting for clarity and peace. Do everything to humble yourself and to trust that this passage needs you walking the talk of what you want to see changed about your life. What provokes you to go low and give your energy away is just checking to see if you really love yourself enough to say no to what obviously is here to hurt you. Don’t chase the pain and vote for more. See that this is happening to get you showing a higher side that you want to be your future life.
Rewards come SWIFTLY to those who pass the test of this day. So, walk with grace and face challenges with a new idea on how this could be here for a great reason in showing you that you are not the person you used to be. Show your light and this will be the end of a cycle manifesting those that bring you down into feeling worthless.
This is also when you are going to truly embrace the fact that we all need to transform and become higher beings who are not so gullible to old world programming. The more hatred you hold inside, and anger for how you feel let down by life, is going to determine how gullible you are and manipulated to hold low vibes and blame everyone else for what is going wrong. Listen to that – the more HATRED you have inside is WHY you will still buy into the fake news that has you thinking the war in Ukraine is not really happening or all Democrats are scum. The level with which YOU ARE BEING FOOLED is all about the inner landscape of how you really feel about your life.
Something at this time starts to reveal the manipulation that has been going on. Just like how Trump Jr. made the excuse that his father was just PLAYING Putin and all the evil dictators – which begs us to question, was he playing everyone? I mean Trump did say he was for the regular people, who he has never been or ever supported in his past as proof of his intentions, and as president he gave corporations an almost 40% tax cut and the elite were given tax cuts that were made permanent so no new president could take them away! Does that sound like for the people to you?? Can you imagine if YOU got almost 40% off your rent? And to think that all those corporations are the ones raising their prices now. This is the corruption of those who PLAY US so that they can get into positions to actually support the elite even more, with their endless appetites for money and power, and do the most harm to the people by trying to shame them for their struggle. We all have been played and the proof is in the pudding.
So, expect that things are reaching the light and they ARE changing you. But also, where you stand in your opinion of things DEALS WITH how unhappy or happy you really are inside. Those that are happy are going to be able to cut through the bullshit and NOT be played by those who are going to use and abuse us. If you are full of rage, you WILL sign up for those who are playing you because they will affirm that you have every reason to be angry at everyone else.
But in fact, you will not grow your flowers if you stay bitter and blaming those who are being put into your target area as WHY your life is not as successful as you had hoped it would be. If it hasn’t gone your way, YOU need to make a choice to bring balance to your life that DOES NOT deal with hating on others for how far they have come because you are jealous that you feel stuck in a life that does not please you. YOU got to be the one going for the dream if you feel stuck in the misery. It is here for you to choose for more. OR, you can continue to be played by those that want you vibrating hatred and serving their dark motives. YOUR CHOICE. The way you really feel inside is what gets you supporting what is outside of you.
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Be okay feeling super mental today and seeing so much that it may leave you feeling like you can't do your dreams and maybe it is better to surrender into your old lane and give up on the journey that it would take to move into the new lane. Allow yourself to be all over the place BUT DO NOT get hung up on one idea being the truth that you are too far gone and are NOT gifted enough to live this other thing.
This day is all about testing you to see if you can still look beyond the details of this moment and the fears that others hold around you and STILL see for a better day with a knowing that you WILL be okay. For sure, it's about controlling your mental spaces so that you don’t shoot yourself in the foot and stop a process that NEEDS YOU valuing yourself and going towards a more beautiful manifestation. If you find yourself on the low end of the view of your future potential, just be patient with what you are seeing, but be determined in setting things straight and in standing your ground towards a new expression.
This energy is very much about the beginning of a long journey but still going towards what you want to see be put into place. Building a house takes a dream, a floor plan and TONS of details that need you seeing the big picture as you do all the hard work that will one day be what you get to enjoy. When your body has taken on too many snack foods and not enough movement, you have to commit to this challenging position that needs you seeing the end result while walking the day to day that will get you there. Use these examples to stay in the game of your own betterment KNOWING none of us get to just jump into the dream without really showing a discipline and commitment to a far-off goal. We have to send out that line, but then we got to be patient as we bring it closer to reality. Don’t get judgmental with yourself and do not give up on what FEELS like it is where you want to be.
Also – the airwaves are full today and they seem to be what gets you going low on your dreams. So be neutral with what you see today and don’t let anything be the end of you. If you get pushed down and start to doubt that you can do what you dream, see for the inspiration that will get you standing stronger when you get yourself out of this situation. Don’t buy into defeat or anything today being a sign that you can’t do what you dream of doing. All things pushing you down are to get you shooting up even higher with a dedication that THIS TIME you build it with steel. Where you feel weak and fragile, because of what comes as words or a message, is where you are to double or triple the reinforcement that will keep you standing true.
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With this full moon we finally start to get up and put the pieces together so that we feel like our life has purpose. If you feel like you are on a dead end, this moon is when you are to finally create the manifesto of where you want to be, with feet planted firmly in not letting go of the dream. EVERY ONE OF YOU is looking into this place off to the right that feels like it is where you were destined to be, and now is when you are to take a step in this new direction and create all the lists and plans that affirm THIS is your new thing.
DO expect to feel like you aren’t where you want to be and to feel a bit of friction around a location or space where you now don’t feel the will to grow. You may feel in limbo before you take steps forward, and this is okay! You may also feel in this dream space where you feel dazed and confused, but this is when you are to come up with brilliant creative ideas that NEED YOU laying low as the inspiration drops into your consciousness.
We are moving into a time where we are much more open to the reality that we NEED rest, and we need these downtimes spent doing nothing or sitting out under a tree with zero thoughts in the mind. We are to accept that self-care is the ONLY way to get our bodies up the mountain with full on wisdom and knowing of the journey. Self-care is when we open to new plans and seeing that we CAN invest in ourselves, or we CAN see for a new way to do what now maybe is not producing the results we wished for. Cafes that are open 24/7 NEVER feel the reboot of a good night’s sleep or the rejuvenation from time off to get some space from a situation.
Many of you are going into the retreat with this moon in order to get that space so that you can really see what is going on and WHAT is wrong with the path you were committed to. This moon is all about change and getting you to see that we need to evolve and go with the flow of how things move us differently as we get older and wiser on the earth journey. Nothing stays the same, but through pulling back and opening to the mystery of what you need to know next, you WILL see a new path that gets you STOKED for how NOW you want to live your life differently.
Keeping it real, The Andy Warhol Diaries changed my life 100%. I don’t really know anything about any artists and it's an area I never really delved into my whole life. But after that documentary I want to go to school for Art History and work in a gallery! I have never even known how to paint, but I want to start painting and discovering what is inside of me. After learning about Jean-Michel Basquiat, who is SO MUCH LIKE ME, we even both are Venus in Aquarius and his Sun is 1 degree Capricorn, which is my rising sign, and his moon is Pisces, which is my Sun sign -- but the way he was and his art SO resonated with me. He for sure is my favorite artist now – and I didn’t know I had a favorite artist. His work brought me to tears because I was like, YES, YES, YES – I get it and I LOVE IT. And I don’t even know that I have been in an art gallery, which I know is a weird thing to say, but now I want to go to all the shows! And I HAD NO IDEA this was in me until I watched that documentary ON my birthday last week!
So, expect this moon to also bring something out of you that you didn’t really know was there, BUT it is to inspire movement towards a new path that deals with your soul’s purpose and bringing more value to your day to day. You also may be inspired to create new routines or take care of your body with exercise or systems that keep you connected to using it, so you don’t lose it. This is the BEST TIME to start those new workout programs and ways to feed and treat your body.
ALSO. As a warning. KEEP your animal babies safe. Keep them in your attention and watch for any signs of distress or changes with their behaviors. Unfortunately, I have seen it so many times with this moon where we have problems with our babies, and this is a big time when many of them will pass. Don’t project -- but do be aware that we need to pray for protection of the animals at this time.
When we are younger, we do everything for others, as even before 24 our frontal lobe is not available to help us make the best decisions. We have NO CLUE before 24 as we are just following along and truly representing what we happen to have seen in life thus far.
AFTER 24, we are finally able to make decisions for ourselves, and it's why so many people move around this time and start to explore what REALLY is going on out in the world. This is also when we really get to questioning what we did in our teens and early 20s that NOW makes no sense at all as we see we were just following along and wanting attention.
The older we get, the more confident we become in choosing what we feel inside and not allowing others to dictate what we should or should not be doing. There is a voice inside of you that is the truth of what you need to be doing in life – and honoring this voice is what will also have many people upset at you and making you wobble in the hopes that you will run back to your old beliefs and stop going outside the lines where others don’t want you to be.
So be loving with yourself as you may be feeling judgmental and questioning if you can really follow what you dream for. Remember how I told you when I moved to San Francisco at 24 that everyone tried to get me fearful of earthquakes and all that could go wrong. Nothing was going to stop me because I always knew I would spend part of my life there, but I did have to juggle heap loads of fears as I made my way to my new lands. Others wanted me to stay the same and not reach to places they have never been – so I had to hold that and not allow it to fill my dream spaces with fears that would keep me from doing what I FELT INSIDE was my destiny.
Today you are going to sit in a similar place where you KNOW you needed to say what you did or do what you felt called to do – but you are not seeing any proof just yet that you made the best move. Do know, you may be in an emotional storm with someone who doubts your visions, but it will be diluted in about 3 days. So be with the feelings and process what needs to be digested, but DO NOT question your moves. See that sometimes your waves affect others in rough ways, and it makes them mad, but ultimately, you got to do what you feel called to do.
Life is too short to live in the past of others’ fears and we need to get used to ruffling the feathers of those who want us to stay the same. If you feel inside that you have to go for some dream that is yet to be manifested, then you got to go for it. These feelings are there for a reason and taking leaps of faith is never going to be easy because it requires you believe in yourself. But the more you do this sort of move FOR YOU, the less resistance you will feel inside when the wind calls you to jump into a new thing.
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DO NOT go low in this energy because there is nothing wrong and even clogged pipes can be shifted if you wait it out and be in a space where you are seeing that there MUST be a solution or answer that will show you the way. Things stopping up are just getting you to open your mind and look in other directions. Be playful with this energy and don’t get too judgmental on yourself if you aren’t moving at the speed you see others going.
There is a big test to this day where you are to see others doubting you or even feel the pressure that you NEED to move, but if you don’t really feel good in your belly, it's NOT the time to leap. You are to stand solid in your own feelings, even if they don’t make sense to anyone around you. And if this means you need to lay on the couch all day and write out visions for your future, DO SO. Just know, the energy wants you seeing for a new day and not allowing your past or the pressures from others to be what moves you before your time. If they want to meet with you and you want to cancel, honor your own feelings because today there is a warning to not follow along when you feel like digging in your heels and doing your own thing.
AND – if someone else cancels on you, be loving in how you hold it because this was them needing to value their own feelings -- and it is nothing about you. You CAN make yourself the victim and feel like something is wrong, but ultimately, we all are being asked to listen to our gut and to drive from the song it gets us to sing EVEN IF this goes against what we are conditioned to do.
Many of you are going to finally put one foot in front of the other and start a new regimen that will lead to more joy in your life. The pause or limbo is just waiting for your gas tank to fill up -- and THEN you will go. So, allow inspiration to be what moves you because it WILL bring steam. But until you feel filled up, just be in this energy and dream for your next great thing. There is nothing to worry about and you don’t need to see glass half empty as you wonder about what things mean.
We all need to stop in our tracks and observe the truth of how we respond when we don’t see that we are getting the easy way. It's time to drop our arms and be more compassionate when not feeling seen. This energy wants you seeing that life is always an in-breath and an out-breath with a wave that goes up and down. We sleep and we wake up refreshed from the down time that put us in positions of rest. There is a rhyme to the reason and a season that NEEDS to be honored. This winter feels like it was fast forward for many of you and THIS WEEK is when you will want to surrender into a pause or a space where you DO feel down and out and not all that motivated. Spring comes rushing in soon and this week needs you taking care of business and grounding in a new way to REALLY race with confidence into a new flow or new pattern in your life.
But don’t feel lost if you don’t see a home yet or you feel like you are in limbo in regard to which way to go. YOU ARE to be dazed and confused and for it to get you trusting a higher plan that deals with a crop growing and a seed that is just starting to move underground. You WILL pop on through to the other side, but for now, be okay digesting which direction feels like it will bring the most joy into your life.
Love is rising because it needs to be where we give more of our attention. So be in the limbo with visions of higher value and YOU deserving to be the star of some show. See for it and expect that your wishes will be granted. DO NOT look at limbo in the negative with ideas that others are going to steal your limelight and force you to suffer in thinking you don’t have a place in the world. That is not the truth. But we are in an energy that is creating a new plan for us to walk into. So what you think IS going TO BE -- and we need you OUT of the past where things were limited, and INTO the unknown future where the potential is vast. See for solutions NO MATTER WHAT. Tip your view to KNOWING something will come to help you EVEN IF the bridge feels broken and the way cannot yet be seen. Manifest something better and know that this day brings the clarity so that you can wake up and fight for the life of your dreams. There is MORE for you to go for. DO NOT ACCEPT DEFEAT.
I had this situation where I was hoping to hire this really young girl and we made tons of mistakes in hoping for the best while not really asking all the questions. And when we came at that point where we were not on the same page, we got to learn the true feelings we felt for each other and this opportunity.
But what I was shown through this experience was that with challenges we tend to either fight for what we want, or we fight others who aren’t giving us what we want. I was hoping she would fight for this position and set me straight with my miscommunications, if they were that, about what I was seeing -- but instead she wanted to fight me. And this girl who doesn’t even have a frontal lobe developed yet, spewed out the most vicious threats I have ever heard. She was like, I am going to do videos and destroy your business. She was like, I’m going to write a book based on your book and steal your wisdom. She even threatened me in a way that had me nervous she would do something to harm my dog in order to make me feel pain. I was like, WHAT?? And let’s not forget that I am a Record Keeper, so all the energy she sent my way is going to bury her with instant Karma. – As a way to get the humans learning that we don’t get to just work to destroy ANYONE and not have that exact energy planted in our futures where we will then be destroyed from our actions.
It is from our wounds that we do destructive things in our present moments. It is why I always say, watch yourself and others when we don’t get our way because THAT is the true state of the wounds that are fracturing our future growth. And if we keep inflicting harm and wishing for failure upon others – because they are not giving us our way -- we all will lose what we most love and keep spiraling out into worlds that feel like we never get what we dream for. We can't be mean spirited and think our lives will be abundant and supportive. Just like the movie, the I-land, what we do comes back and if we do evil, it becomes the world that greets us.
So, we need to find our way through provocation and clashes that are merely showing a non-match, and NOT go so low because we feel hurt or left out because the old world programmed us to thinking we can microwave our dreams and have it all right now. We all feel like losers because at times other people DO win. We don’t get ALL the positions or all the opportunities or all the greatest loves. We learn through what doesn’t fit in order to use better words to describe what we wish for.
I learned through this surprising clash that I need to stop promising so much (moon square Jupiter) and getting so excited JUST BECAUSE the Universe brought someone my way. I used to think it all was destiny and I am very Pollyanna about thinking miracles are happening with all people who fall on my path. What I have been learning is that I have to ask more questions (which is hard when you grew up learning you have no value) and slow down the process of integration BECAUSE there is so much trickster energy in my group collaborations because of having Jupiter/Neptune conjunction in Sagittarius in the 11th house and in a sextile to my Venus in the 1st house. I am teased with “the dream” in order to really find out what is hiding behind the superficial facades. I was warned by so many people in Taos who say, GO SLOW with the people you meet here because it is the Land of Enchantment, and most things are not what they seem.
So, realize clashes are a part of life, and not getting your way is how we learn to value ourselves more so that we aren’t needing so much external to be what fills us up with faith – that isn’t there on its own. If something doesn’t love you, it wasn’t meant to, and now it's on you to not fight and hate it because your wishes are not being granted. The test is, do you value yourself enough to hear a no and not have it turn you demonic in wanting to hurt the messengers and stay trapped in the wounds that bind you into a miserable existence. It's time to learn from what doesn’t work, with love on your mind and sweet words on the lips that affirm NEXT TIME is when you get your wishes manifested. Don’t bury yourself alive just because THIS MOMENT is not seeing you for your divine light. Don’t fight or be mad at what isn’t a match. Love that you now know -- and have hope that something better grows from how you are learning to do your moves better.
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Do be aware that what hits you may have you wanting to die or give up and not be in such an unfair world. You may be brought into contact with those who are so deep in the struggle, and it makes you sad that there isn’t support for all and some sort of system that runs on integrity and love. Expect to be a bit overwhelmed and to feel that nothing soothes you so that you CAN just let it go and move on. We are fixated in energies that need us sticking with shifting into higher vibrating beings that are not so gullible to marketing or manipulations that have hidden motives that ARE depleting and destroying our planet.
What I know about life is that we are basically on this road trip across the country where we have a limited about of snacks that will be what lifts us and gets us satiated down the road. And what is happening from social media is that people are sharing ALL the snacks with you, and if you eat them all right now, you will have NOTHING down the road that WAS to be something that inspires you to keep going. We are not to be a cookie monster with it all and to eat and eat and eat as we seek for things that bring us answers or the cocaine high of an experience. The scrolling keeps you addicted to more, while also swiping for the next, and the next, and the next -- but it is HURTING YOU!
We have GOT to start learning to seek for silence and to sit out under a tree and just be. Influencers are cranking out the exploitation from all that has been written in books and they are feeding you what WOULD have dropped on your path in a year or a decade away, as a snack that would assist you -- AND if you eat it now, you will get to that point a year or decade away and there will be no food for you to eat – because you ate it all before you left your hometown!
Others may put out the line of cocaine, but it is on us to value ourselves enough to say NO to what WILL hurt us. And that is what is going on with this energy where many are in pain because there are no more snacks to eat, and they feel dead and empty inside. So, we have to be smarter than the influencers feeding us drugs that give us a lift in this moment -- because they are doing it with drug dealer intentions.
There are NO Natives that ask the Chief to give the wisdom before it is time. There are NO therapists who just give you all the information, like what a narcissist is --NO REAL therapists do that! They do not want to feed you with all the words of what things are. They don’t just sit there and explain the healing journey. They make you talk your shit out and they listen and listen and listen and watch our body signs. There are NO Shamans who just tell you the rules of the road and share words on what things mean.
The truth is that the healing journey is one where WE talk and express our things, and the true authority listens and gives little bits of feedback that are to wake us up and shift us. This is why I say insta therapy is giving you all the snacks for the road trip first thing where now you won't actually hold this vibration, but your mind will expect everyone to treat you in the most gracious ways BECAUSE you read all the information and ate all the snacks that WERE to be a part of your future. I have found that those who are addicted to insta therapy are not that good at forgiveness and they are the first to drop you and NOT try to work at healing the imbalances or bringing the peace.
All the mental information, or snacks before their time, creates big heads that need EVERYONE to be healed so that THEY are not ruffled. And the moment they are ruffled, they are OUTTA THERE and calling it boundaries, even though in reality they are walls put into place with hatred. Boundaries come from love, and they only grow from someone who really does the work and doesn’t just read about the work.
Good morning sweet love! Today is another HIGHLY sensitive day where we are feeling the truths of life and how they are requiring us to change. Do what you can to stay in supportive waters and to do what feels good to your body – but do not think you have all the pieces of the puzzle just yet. This time wants us to face the truth behind forces trying to keep us in line, but it also wants us seeing that we can start over and choose for more supportive things that WILL hold us in the future.
There are lessons going on around the quick way being the way we should avoid like the plague. This is saying we need to reprogram our minds to think about integrity and also following the dollars to see what is intentionally being hidden out of view. In this energy we are learning that the bigger it is, the more likely it is corrupt in how it got your attention and has you thinking THIS is the authority we should trust.
I had someone reach out about seeing the part of fortune being different in what I wrote about in their birth chart book over what a big white-washed mainstream site had to say. The first line they wrote to me was that they found a mistake that I made because this other site that pays a shit ton to be seen as an authority said something different. She instantly placed the blame on me because I am the smaller site.
THIS is how many of you are being programmed to think that THEY are bigger so they MUST be the ones who are correct. But ask them how much they pay a month to be the bigger site, because that is the truth of it all. And when these sites get so big, they then hire staff to steal other people’s work – where the founder feels that THEY aren’t personally stealing, so it's okay.
I’ve known two people now who worked for these big spiritual or astrology accounts and they said one has paid $10,000 a month since they started around 8 years ago and another one for the past 5 years spends around $25,000 a month in social media ads!!!
This energy wants you slamming awake in seeing how you enable things to be false and doing hurtful deeds to others BECAUSE of money. I have a Venus in Aquarius in the 1st house, so I question all things big and mainstream. The bigger they are, the more generic and exploitative I feel their energy is. But MOST PEOPLE are not at all built like me and they follow the big numbers obediently. Do yourself a favor and observe how you give credit to some because they front as something bigger than others. You also give credit to what was in your past as learned patterning relating to purchasing habits. Just like yesterday talking about dairy cheese and milk from factory farms, which is going to be the majority of what is out there and what is served at restaurants. Fake news proclaiming that milk does a body good is what got you to habitually place milk or cheese as a daily staple.
But if you follow the money and go deeper you will see that you are going to die from these choices AND be depressed AF from eating those things -- because the mama that created the milk for you was being tortured and exploited and put through the worst kind of emotional pain. Your milk and cheese is full of tears and misery – and that goes into your body and registers in the same way an allergy does.
If you are allergic to something and you eat it, you cannot stop it from absorbing into your body. We all are allergic to tortured animal products and the pain they feel will be what we then live. If you drink a shot of tequila, it WILL get you buzzed. WAKE UP and see that you are what you eat and drink and think and subject yourself to. But also wake up even higher to seeing that manipulative forces GOT YOU HERE and got you thinking you need cow milk for your cereal. WHEN IN FACT, you need Oatly Oat Milk. We need to question it all and stop ourselves from this automatic motion where we DO what the con artists want us to do. When you wake up and become sovereign, you step into a new view on what ultimately is just exploiting others and using you.
Now today is going to be a bit rough for most people – SORRY! I hoped to bring a good gift to you all on this day, but it seems to be one where we are VERY emotional and extra upset about what is not in order and where it needs to be from our mental perspective of things. You may notice that you or others are barking out frustration and this energy that is trying to get things to move out of the way. You may see people losing it in their cars as they hit the steering wheel or scream or give you the finger.
Be patient in knowing MANY are about to really hit bottom where they will exhaust themselves, and then a new energy will come in to give them hope. But we really do need to hit the wall in life in order to see how we have been manipulated to buy into these certain things that are NOT what we would really love to back up and support. Just like the dairy industry where mama cows are impregnated with a tool crammed up them in order to make babies so that their bodies will make milk. But the babies are taken right after birth and killed in ways that you see in the worst horror movies. There is NOTHING humane about drinking factory farmed milk and cow cheese as it has depression and sadness created from cows that then have to be pumped of all their milk to feed YOU instead of the babies who are murdered. And when the milk runs dry, the whole process will begin again until the mama’s body breaks down.
We have to wake up in realizing we are what we eat and sad hormones in tortured mamas are GOING to be what YOU then feel. Then you may race to the pharmaceuticals to get pills to pick you up – but you still are in the same cycle because those pills most likely will change your system so that without them you wont be able to know true happiness like what you felt BEFORE you took these altering legal drugs.
There is a cycle playing out that is keeping people supporting the ones who are killing this planet. And we just follow along and trust the big number accounts and the official doctors and the ease with which we find certain things. But there IS a trail you could take to connect the truth of what is really going on and it all boils down to money and control. Be VERY WARY of just trusting all willy nilly that your doctor is there to help you. Unless, they are Chinese Medicine Doctors, most likely they went to school to learn which prescriptions to give you. I had a western doctor who had me on antibiotics from 6th grade to 12th grade. Which, go figure, I’m allergic to MOST foods now, and if I eat them, like vanilla, lemon, sesame, wheat or tomatoes, I blow up with red skin or extra inches of inflammation and massive tummy pains. Another western doctor had me on 800 milligrams of ibuprofen 3 times a day for this knee pain I was having, and I did it for 8 months.
There is a wicked system that is keeping people sick, depressed and altered in what could be permanent. And it all is about money. There is a documentary that talks about how the fat free movement of the 80s is what then boomed the cheese industry, which before that, cheese was not such a big daily staple item in people’s minds. We are conned on the daily to follow the flows of what big pharma and the corporations want us to be doing. But we all are sick and depressed now – or addicted to pills that we think make us more energized and creative. But all these things tasting so good going down are hurting us in the long run. And YES, that pill may help you stay up late and write a book and create amazing music, but there is a big payback for the snort of excitement you get in this one moment. And guess what? They are NEVER going to tell you how much damage those pills or those addictions are doing to your mind. But from what I have heard from people getting off of them, is that true happiness becomes harder to find. And that’s why we need more people talking about this and warning each other that quick fixes are not the answer.
You also may see some competition situation where it makes you feel like you don’t have a home and something is wrong with you, but you are to look at this with new eyes where you see THIS is a sign letting you know something CAN be done. Shift your mental space to seeing for the high vibes in all that hits your life. The old you would see things as confirmation that others get to prosper while you will be left behind. Do not hold onto those old thoughts! Think as if life is a big mystery but that what we see is what is inviting us to grow and go for more in life. If you see someone doing what you want to do, see that the Great Mystery brought them to you at this perfect timing so that YOU would start planting the seeds for a new beginning where you too will be living that dream. Play in life and look out at what is here as being something important that wants you to see that your life has just begun and there is SO MUCH for you still to do.
There will be things shifting and changing around you, so stay loose in your interpretations AND in seeing how this will develop. None of us can see the exact way today as we are to go into what FEELS right but to not really understand it in the brain. Actually, if you are too mentally focused, you may even talk yourself out of the change your body is indicating. So, work with your mind to allow a new view to present, but don’t think about HOW to get to the outcome of your dreams. That may be what shoots you in the foot and keeps you too scattered to hold a vibration of knowing. This day is more about trusting that your body is leading the way and allowing the steps to be filled in when you get there. We don’t need to know it all in order to move forward on what feels so right and destined to be.
Do be aware that there is one trap today that deals with telling too much to someone who will fill you up with doubts. You also may feel driven to look at something online that then has you thinking you aren’t good enough. So, listen to your body because it will warn you to not reach out to all in trying to get answers for your confusion. It's better to allow some mystery to this day and to not chase what you think will provide you some ultimate solution.
But if you let go and meander, you will get everything you need! Just see that things have changed and the way to grow is by following a road that can't be determined by other people’s opinions or experiences. We step into this unique space where we are held safely but only if we honor that our inner system is guiding the way. Listen, trust, and don’t expect to be able to make sense of WHY you are choosing what feels so right today.
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Okay then! Here comes a huge wave of light that is to hit us all and get our systems seeking for a solution and something that is beyond what we have seen before. It means our minds are starting to change as we are seeing that we have to give to get, and we have to BE the compassion OF where we were left neglected and empty.
You are going to be running into people and will notice a lot going on around you. For sure, today you are manifesting mirror situations that are vibing to what you got going on inside. This means many of you will see people talking and sharing and showing that they are intune to community. And many of you also will see fighting and will see angry faces and will see people doing unconscious things.
What you see is what you need to learn from, but it also deals with what really is going on inside of you in how you see the potential for where you want to grow into. If you see the kindness in others today, you are also saying that inside you DO believe in your dreams. And to see combativeness means you aren’t in alignment with truly BELIEVING things can get better. But as the last few days are showing us, LOW is not a negative thing and every single one of you will travel that way in order to see what is merely intellectualized and what is actualized in your body.
If you really believe you can come out of the shadows and show yourself in a better way where you manifest what feels like a dream, then you will have a really good day today and will feel more hope in humanity. We are creating a bigger wave from the confirmation we are receiving, and this also means that you need to be hyper aware of the impact you make. Eye contact, smiles, letting people go in front of you, noticing who needs your help, and just really being aware of what is around you is encouraged today.
If you see things low vibe, give them your attention, and see how you can bring more hope from what you are seeing. Use your energy to have compassion for how wounded people are and how they are now fighting with everyone else, but also see that this resonates with something inside of YOU that is still in need of correction. Compassion heals all and when you feel for how wrong others are acting, as in SEEING that they OBVIOUSLY are in pain and come from things that have wounded them, then YOUR vibration will rise, and your own wounds will lessen their aggression.
This also is a great day to be with your creative work as there is a lot of energy that is giving us inspiration as to new ways of doing our old things. You may be writing up a storm or seeing all these ideas that you hadn’t even thought up before. It can be a really beautiful day for many of you where you feel like you are getting so much done and you won't be doing the usual mental banter where you think you don’t have enough time, or you go to negative thinking because you are not where you want to be. Notice this feeling when you go to bed tonight and say, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, as you put yourself to sleep.
Today is to bring joy to our palette and to a fresh energy coming in that has us feeling bubbly. Enjoy and rise with where the bubbles take you to dream for better things.
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All triggers are to be seen as blessings as they are sort of the pre-test to letting us know what we still need to give attention to that deals with us really vibrating something and not just thinking we are this other thing. Every one of you needs to get a real therapist and also needs to be in respect for the person you are because of your past, but also the person you are to keep growing into. This is about acknowledging that we don’t stay some certain way forever – and we also make heap loads of mistakes. It is easy to look back and think our missteps have ruined us, but the truth is we were going to make some sort of move like this in order to learn, so it is what it is.
But now it's on you to not keep focusing in a way that makes your wrong moves the truth of how your future is next to unfold. You are to seek for solutions and to expect that around this day, you see into a new plan for getting your creative gifts out into the world so that you are really using your voice and expressing what you most love to do. Many of you will be shifting gears or going into new levels in what you are doing to make a difference in the world.
As I’m doing this reading, I’m thinking about how I started my career telling you all that in about 7 years astrology will be white-washed and so mainstream that it won't even have the same power as when it is this sacred thing. I said I will be leaving this astrology world in the ways that I was in the beginning because my Venus in Aquarius in the 1st house IS NOT HERE TO DO mainstream work for the world. So, I knew back in 2012 that my time was limited in this arena. And keeping it real, I needed to think about this because I HAVE been so resistant for a few years now in sharing what I can do for you – because I’m so seeing how astrology is money signs in so many business people’s eyes -- AS I predicted and told you all in 2012.
So, for me, this energy is showing me that it's time to grow into new ways of sharing what I love to do and letting go of the paths that now don’t feel like I want to run head first into them. To be a follower is impossible for my spirit and I need this wake-up call to honor that my BODY has been speaking to me since about 2019 when I looked out and saw all the oversaturation of freely giving away ancient wisdom, turning it into like tinder or porn where now people can't even have healthy relationships. People now swipe and are onto the next, and fuck and are out of there, or can't even get it up to fuck a real person.
Too much is never a good thing -- and it changes you. Social media or the sex apps creators KNEW this would hurt you all – but with so much money as the prize, most people put up blinders and just chase the dollar signs.
So realize that we are being inspired by something that others bring to our attention and we need to take this seriously. When things get resistant – where your spirit no longer runs free, it just means you need to create a new plan that requires you use your voice in new ways to express what you most love to talk about. Go for a natural flow and trust that sometimes we just got to change.
Be aware that all of us are on this new cycle that is like a wave going up and down. It is where we gain momentum and speed FROM what pulls us down where we grow stronger in not wanting anything to stop us from getting to our new goals. The downward pull is just a test to get you shooting higher when the wave brings you back up again. It will be wildly interesting and also frustrating for many. If you understand this roadmap, you won't feel so negative when you see that now you are being pushed down again. See that you won't get anywhere unless you go down into the scarcity and the limitation that holds you prisoner in your mind as forces are trying to keep you in line.
This is when we are to come outside of the boundaries and not just follow along because large forces try to make us think THEY are the answer. SO MUCH is constantly manipulating you with dollar signs in the eyes as the main motivation. And it is when we tune into our bodies that we are able to decipher who is doing finger puppet shadows on the wall and who is authentic with love and care in wanting to see us grow.
You need to face that 99% of what you take in is a part of grooming you to be stronger in the gut in choosing for what you take in that will ACTUALLY benefit you in the long run. 1% is of the love and here to be what helps you grow better. This is on purpose so that you DO follow along with the masses and chase after high numbers that you THINK affirms a true authority. You all are groomed to be followers and to chase numbers through particular ways that are known to get you hooked into thinking THIS is the answer or THIS is what matters.
Just know. This time wants you seeing the manipulations in different ways but where they empower you to stand up stronger, to speak from your heart, to not just follow because something appears to be what you think you should judge as the better thing. This is a test to see how YOU see how flawed you are in the face of others who SEEM to have it going on.
The wave that brings you down is to get you seeing how stable your true sense of value is. And if you collapse with all gusts of wind, then you need to be down here to figure out how to rebuild your castle so that the foundation is fixated in knowing YOU ARE VALUABLE, and your creative gifts are essential and WITH HOME in the world. It's about you not gauging the external and having it deplete your internal. BUT IF YOU ARE DOWN HERE – NOW is when you are to take this low feeling and get it SHOOTING up higher with new plans on how to do your life better. The low road gets you seeking with more passion for how you will next walk the high road.
You also need to stay sovereign in your mind in seeing that you are JUST about to transform into your best idea yet. You are to see that all things go up and down in a wave. Businesses do 100% -- all of them will walk the down low AND the rising high -- but only if you stick with them and learn when the down points come so as to have better plans about how to walk the high points.
Stay with great hope that your next is going to be your best. Don’t even go to thinking you are washed up and gone. This is the down inspiring you to do it better in the near future.
A few weeks ago, I wrote a truth serum post about how fake astrology can be and how so many are spreading things that are not at all the truth. This person commented that my post was going to have a lot of people losing hope. And I remember thinking, if one post can change the stability of a person’s hope then they are not that grounded in a true level of faith in their life. If they need fake astrology posts talking about a portal that will change EVERYTHING and turn you into a high vibrating being JUST LIKE THAT, then we are not really grounded in reality, and whatever conflictive wind may come is going to knock you to the ground. My post was about facing that many influencers on social are all about money and likes – so they work to generate THIS HUGE EVENT, over and over, so as to get all this attention.
And think about all the people they impact that have all these high hopes for this massive change, that doesn’t come because it was just hype. WE all are accountable for what we share and how it impacts others. So, to do these false hopes is SO detrimental to all that do it and to all that are affected by it. We get away with NOTHING on the Earth plane and my post was about letting you all know that it's pretty fake now – and it spreads like the wind, which is going to have so many tangled in karma paybacks that didn’t need to happen. Money and likes should never be why we are in the game of life.
This energy wants you finding a new grounded system where you stop looking for all the quick fixes to your pain and start a new crop of life where you actually do the work and focus on the inside job that WILL ground you in stability when all the fake hype comes your way and the truth serums set you straight. Your journey is to be slow and steady and not waiting for some portal to fix you and give you the life of your dreams. IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN THAT WAY. You got to BE something to see it manifest around you. And this energy is to get you woke on how illusive things are in the world that keep you hooked up to some IV feeding you high feelings in life. It may feel so fun to imagine that some cosmic event is enough to wake up humanity, but in reality, things aren’t that easy. We are addicted to the easy way and really need to fall in love with the Earth honoring cycles that do their thing when the time is right, but not a minute sooner. I’ve noticed that when the trees start turning fall colors, it happens around the same week each year and they all do it like clockwork. It's fascinating! And just as they have cycles inside that are what truly decides, so do we. And they are set to slow -- and NOT amphetamine induced NOW NOW NOW.
For many, you will finally be connecting something that took you needing to believe in yourself and just go for some dream. Today is when you get a sign of where you are on the journey and what it is going to take to get you to the end result of what you are working for. It is a great day to start a big plan that needs you doing work that may feel hard or that pushes you to the limit, but you need to show up and say that you are ready for this.
Everyone will feel a unique energy today that helps them stick with the projects and plow on through even if the going gets tough. We all need lazy days, but you don’t want to waste this day AT ALL. It is about starting something that is going to build you a new dream and staying driven with whatever needs your attention. Things WILL look bigger today and you may see scary shadow images on the wall that get you to want to run back into some old scenario, or the way you used to handle things. Just be aware that it's on you to go big and to consider this day a carving out of what you want to see grow.
There are tests with others who may be here to get you thinking you need to go back and stay safe at home where things are being run the old world style. You may have people who slam into you or are doing aggressive things that COULD scare you into doubting your dreams again. Just know, the first days of this month need you really out there in hoping for the best and not spending any time worrying or doing what you would do in your past.
If you lose something, talk positive about it making space for something better. To lose things on this day is just a sign that they wouldn’t support you in the future and you have to make certain sacrifices in order to see your new plants grow. Just don’t make anything a negative where you are thinking you are a victim. It's time to start telling new stories that don’t need everything right now in order to see that you are on track and are not going to give up on your dreams.
For 14 years I talked about Aquarius Nation to everyone – even though I didn’t have a website and wasn’t offering any services. For over a decade I talked about all the things I’M DOING NOW but back then I was getting fired constantly and never able to support myself more than a week in the future. I was TOTALLY in the seeds of my dreams and even though everything seemed to be against me, I NEVER let go of what I hoped would one day come true.
You are to do the same and to discover the joy of dreaming even though you may be years from landing into what you will one day be. What matters is that you are making the space for the better to arrive and not running back to fear or the feelings of debt that keep you wanting to check out and disappear. There is nowhere to run but INTO your new dreams that you wish will come true. Find the fun in playing and visualizing how awesome it will be because the energy hears you and things WILL be orchestrated to finally put them into place.
Be aware that you need to reach out to others if they are coming to your mind today! Many people are considering wanting to die today – because things feel so big -- and your new role may be about showing support or love to others that you FEEL need you to be there for them. Follow your feelings and bring action to what they tell you to do! This is a day we ARE to save people and give them the hope that WE HAVE for the new possibilities in our own life.
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This means we will have many tests that deal with showing us things that MAY want to scare us back into the closet to say, okay, I give up, maybe the better life is not in the cards for me. So just know, things ARE to test you, just like when you talk about a dream to the wrong person, and they plant fear into your hope for a better day. You should always stay quiet with your plans if you know you won't get support. Don’t sabotage your new life over-sharing with those who are sure to pop your bubble. Be honoring of yourself in knowing you are with seed and need this to get a bit more grounded before talking about your “lofty” dreams. But also know, they are only lofty until they meet reality, and that means doing the work to set the bricks in place and build what you dream.
At some point in this day, you will EITHER have something come that lets you know you are onto what you have been wishing for, OR you will have something that slams you to the ground thinking you are way too much of a loser to manifest what you have on your mind – even though you were SURE of it the past few days. So, confirmation from others comes with a full force that lets you know you are SO gifted – or, the opposite, where you lose all steam and want to give up.
If you get a good sign today, this is the best news ever! And it means YOU have changed and are no longer glued to your wounds being the truth of your future. Be happy if you feel great today because this is everything and it will be like a milestone with your therapist where you finally grasp what you were doing that was self-sabotaging in your past.
If you feel so low that you can't hardly function, KNOW that your test is about hitting rock bottom and then snapping awake that YOU DON’T DO THIS TO YOURSELF ANYMORE! It's about getting YOU to stand up for you and to say, you know what, I heard these negative messages in my past by wounded people who were unconscious of their moves, but I’M DONE WITH IT – and I’m done with planting these seeds and buying into thinking I am worthless or not skilled enough to succeed. To hit rock bottom today is a blessing that just needs you saying, WAIT A MINUTE, I am not as flawed as I want to victim myself into being. You are to see that you are a work in progress and that sometimes we got to backtrack in order to fully gain speed. So, take a few steps back KNOWING they will get you running with more focus and dedication. It will not be hard to pull yourself up today if you get yanked down, actually. It was just a test to see if you really want to do what you can to start over in staying fixated into a new goal that feels like you were born to do this.
You also can expect to run into someone who makes something way bigger than it really is and your job is to not allow yourself to be pulled into this tsunami that could knock you off your feet. You are to see that many people are not able to step so fully into the dream of life because of so much from their past letting them down and showing them that they are NOT the chosen ones. We are to see the people around us as a sign that we can't follow the old ways anymore. We have to seek into mysterious places and wait out friction or confusion so that we TRUST a solution into place. It will be your inner space that is manifesting for you right now and what it mostly looks like is that friction is there to get you talking louder and stronger about how you NEED a new path to open and bring you to a better scene.
This is when we are to take the first steps into something that FEELS RIGHT TO US. It may not feel right to the masses or to your family members, but it is YOUR JOB to hold steady and not let go just because your dreams are not what others have accomplished in their lifetime. Don’t take marriage advice from someone who has never been married! Don’t take life advice from someone who finds comfort in staying fixated into old world ways. Just consider that opinions are in everyone, and most people were not born to accomplish the big goals like YOU got in your mind right now.
Be okay dreaming for an amazing life! Be okay dreaming that your leaps of faith, where it is just you and the Great Mystery, are ENCOURAGED. This time is unlike any we have seen before and it's on you to surround yourself with those who are just as big of dreamers as you. Your feelings are growing stronger because they are about to take over the wheel and drive you to more honoring places. You don’t have to accept less than, my loves. And just because you grew up like a weed and weren’t given the tools you need to succeed DOESN’T MEAN success is out of your picture. Do your all to see your past as being the perfect catalyst that WILL get you to do something special this time. Your past is to create the momentum that gets you off the couch and into action towards doing whatever it takes to still believe that amazing things are in your future.
What you believe, you will see. What others believe, they will see. So, stay in your lane if others disagree, and merge with those who ALSO are singing about something that would be a dream come true and that feels like it actually could be in reach. You feel something because IT IS coming. Don’t pass this opportunity by because of fear. Make this the year of no regrets.
It's time for us to drop down into a new reality where we chase after soul growth and spirituality, which are the only spaces you find that real joy and passion in life. The ball will be dropping around this day where we really get our money addictions and how promotions and marketing have conned us into thinking we need a whole bunch of things that are a front and not authentic gifts from source or TRULY made with love. We are conned into remaining shallow and denying our feelings as being an indicator of what we should or should not buy into.
Expect to be VERY emotional around this time and to see the injustice or corruption in a similar way to when you move from your hometown to a new city that exposes you to the reality that there is much more going on besides what is in the collective bubble of where you are from. We all change when we move beyond our comfort zone to explore new areas that are unknown. When we travel and see areas unlike our original foundations, they open our eyes and mind to MUCH MORE going on besides what is in the tiny little places we reside.
This energy is going to expand your vision and get you believing in your feelings that are guiding you to reach for more and to take some leap of faith that most people around you would NEVER even think of taking. Be aware that you most likely will be coming against others who hold fears for what you wish to do, and it will be on you to value yourself so much that you don’t stay in the old world just because it feels familiar. We are to step out on the ledges that we find from following our heart and feelings and we ARE to jump into totally new ideas on how we want to be living our lives. NOW is when it will be important to risk it all instead of staying stuck in fears that WILL become HUGE regrets this year. What you see right now is something important on your healing journey and with where you want to step out of the mold and meander into a path that IS your destiny to follow. But this is ALL HEART and belly feelings driving you to do this new exploration and inquisition into what intuitively is a better path to travel.
Now, be aware that for many of you, the change can create something that makes you want to NOT go there, and it can bring up scary feelings because you want things to stay the same. Just know, same has GOT TO GO and different is the way to be. You are on track with this energy if you are saying goodbye to an old habit or belief system that now is evolving into something mysterious and VERY fruitful. But the doorway is dark, and you won’t see that this will be the best move for you just yet.
Something about this energy wants you trusting yourself and the higher power to be controlling a bigger situation that you can't predict. It's about testing you to feel your gut and to believe in better things, but to not actually see them until you start taking a few steps into the dream. The test is, do you trust yourself and value yourself enough to listen to what you feel inside? If you do, YOU WIN. If you don’t, things will stay the same as they have been for this year so far.
This is your opportunity to shoot for the stars and to start living a fairy tale life that demands you surrender to the Great Mystery and pray and meditate EVERY DAY as you learn to co-create and see for what WILL help you feel like you are blessed and in love with what can potentially be. Enough of spending your life in fear of what comes next. It's time to celebrate the confusion and to align fully to walking life in partnership with the divine. There IS more for you and it's calling to your soul so that you listen and create new goals for new mountain tops rising that tease you into choosing for what feels like it will be AMAZING. You can trust where your eyes fall and the feeling it gives you. And now it's on you to NOT LET GO.
Tomorrow is the New Moon in Pisces and today is going to get you in connection with others where you are to be inspired, or provoked, into seeing your place in the world in an upgraded way. This energy is to birth the dreamers who haven’t seen what they want just yet but that they still are holding steady to KNOWING they can manifest magnificent things. We now have been through some heavy tests that are showing us our true vibration and how we can't see changes on the outside until we have created them on the inside. We also can't beat things into position when the energy we hold inside is frustration or anger or demonic ways.
We can only manifest a better life by walking the ways we want life to be for us. It is THE ONLY WAY in this new energy that we can manifest true joy and happiness. If you feel like you are in hell, you created this over the past few years and now it is here for you to change your ways. If you feel dead inside and like there is no hope or reason to be a kind person because YOU haven’t been treated kindly, then you need to wake up each day and ask the Great Mystery to give you situations to be of service where you are thinking of others instead of staying fixated into blaming other factors on what you sit in today.
If you stop focusing on how wrong your life is, you will see so many people around you who need YOU talking in a higher vibrating way and extending your hands, even if you only have $5 to your name. Each person that awaits your compassion is a dent in clearing the debt of your past hurtful ways – that honestly most of you didn’t think mattered! You thought, hey my thoughts are on the inside or said privately with my best gossipy friends, so they don’t really matter.
HA! The joke is on you. They matter MORE. The ways you relished in diminishing others and trying to find fault in those just trying to walk the healing journey are potholes that will knock you out JUST as you get to the top of the mountain. We also have karma hitting us in ironic ways like that; where you think you got away with something, but at the very last moment things crumble to show you that all your energy matters. We really do not get away with anything and it's time to only DO loving things so that our actions start creating a life of bliss.
Things will return to test you to see if NOW you are showing your sweet side even when life feels tart. Your wounds give you permission to be a dark spirit in how you work with others, but your healed ways show you that you only want to see the light in others because IT IS THERE. If you want others to see your light inside you have to see that they all have it too. The more you judge and belittle, the more life has secret snafus that will humble you when you most think you are on top of the game. Earth is a trickster and just because you think things are hidden doesn’t mean they weren’t powerful seeds planted that will derail you when you most think you are headed for success.
You are NOT safe unless you always work to be the compassion and to understand that what we show is how we were hurt and let down in life -- but to affirm that or make fun of that in others just shows how much we still need to heal our wicked ways. THEY WILL get what they dish out, but so will you! So don’t be the ultimate judge in thinking it is a good idea to project your own fractures onto others because you will have to pay for what you wish they would discover. Instead, walk with grace and send out wishes that others in pain will wake up and start behaving kindly. Be and you will see. See and life will be.